FAKENESS.

This message is for any friend of mine that thinks they have to change traits for me to accept them:

For those that do not share my religious views:
Look. Before I was a Christian I was like you. I'm trying to improve myself, and my relationship with God. You don't have to lie to me... I know what you are... I was like you except worse. I know. Don't try to come off as something your not because odds are I see right through you. If you want to cut off the disrespectful language, and trashy clothes etc... I'm fine with this, but trying to act like your something your not. It's not going to change anything it just creates a falseness in our relationship. I know I'm not the sharpest guy out there, but even an idiot like me will eventually realize when someone is something they say their not.

For those that do:
Don't change anything about you. Don't try to copy me or anything your unsaved friends do. Don't you see I hate my old spirit? I'm trying to improve myself... I'm embarrassed when you do something I wouldn't expect from a Christian because I feel like your trying to help me 'fit in'. I'm not cool with this. Be yourself, but also please help me in my quest for what I'm trying to become.

God did this.

The time was 8:32 on a Wednesday night. I was taking a calculus test. I sat there in stewing in my own ignorance. I had doubted myself. My fatal flaw. I had talked to a good friend of mine the night before; during the conversation he convicted me. Telling me my error was my lack of faith. He was absolutely right. Even though his original premise I believe is semi wrong. My faith was misplaced. My faith was supposed to be with God. I relied on God for so much, and yet with math... I didn't. Because my faith was weak. So I sat there I had finished all my problems I was doing revisions. I was unsure about 4 problems. They were simple domain, and range problems. I sat there praying about it. I prayed "God help me figure these out" and he did. God taught me math better than any man ever could. =)

Never in my life have I scored a perfect on a math exam.
I would never have in calculus. God is the source of all intelligence, and knowledge.
Rely on him. Don't make my mistake. Don't have faith in imperfect beings, you'll always be let down. Build your faith in God. He'll never let you down.

Lately.

My flesh, and blood thinks I should rethink my career. Because according to my own flesh, and blood... since my career is saturated with evolutionist garbage... my own flesh, and blood felt it was their place to tell me "you can't spend your entire life fight everything Sebi" they said they just want happiness for me. Yeah? and what makes you think I'll be happy settling for less then what I'm aiming for? Just because I'm Christian am I to be the subject of injustice? What am I to do? lay down, and choose an easier road? No. I won't. I won't suffer such intolerance. I'll fight it all the way. Bring it on academic world. I'll defeat you if it be God's will.

Thoughts.

I'm told to behave. I'm told to conform to be tolerant of the evils in this world. If I don't I face ridicule, insults, prejudice of all kinds. But if I comply in return I'm promised acceptance, companionship, love, and pleasures. These so called promises carry chains my brothers. CHAINS. Well the world can KEEP ITS EMPTY PROMISES. THE WORLD CRUCIFIED MY SAVIOR, MY GOD. Depart from me hypocrisy, murderers, blasphemers. As long as I live, and breath. I will enjoy the free pleasures God granted me. I don't need the worlds acceptance. I don't CARE what the world thinks of me. I don't need anything this world can offer me. When I die. I die a man free of this worlds corruption. I was born into bondage, but I will die a free man. I SWEAR IT.

Thoughts.

I'm tired of liars dudes. The truth is so easy. Save your breath, and save my time. Please.

Thoughts.

Trusting no one will get you no where.